today is the last day of my colleague, Kym, in IBM...and seriously, I was not feelin sad over her departure before today, coz I feel tt she's doin wat she wants, and its for her own gd as well....in fact, i'm feelin glad for her n had confidence tt we'll meet outside again 1 ma...n so, I thot tt i wun b cryin today....n i din! err....ok got la...but its until the last partin part then i buay tong...ran back from her cubicle to mine to cry...(tt's the best i can do liao...so dun say me water tap k) [dunno y the image of cheng tat & cheok laughin at me cryin suddenly flash in my mind]

jus now, when its reali time to say bye bye...n i noe tt after today i wun b seein her ard in the office again..tears simply start to swell up in my eyes beyond my control...regardless how hard i try to fight it thru...how hard i try to ignore those things...but the thot of tt there's no kym to "fight" wif me...no kym to pei me go toilet...no kym to come disturb me when she's free..no kym for me to soft-tok to to let me get my way...no more toks n teasin abt kym-&-khim salon...my heart jus tighten n feel like cryin...

nv thot tt i'll cry today...think the last time i cried over a colleague departure is 2-3yrs ago (actually tt's my departure...from the co)...i thot i've managed to convince myself tt ren ge you zi...n we shd b happy if she's leavin for her dreams....but, aiii....reality shows tt i'm reali quite useless...ok, i'm ai ku gui...but aiii...after we spend a yr tog, laughin & complainin & gossipin....how not to feel sad???

bye bye kym...we'll all miss ya...u muz miss us too k....n muz cont to kp in contact k!

~oInKs OiNkS~ _{5:32 PM}